benitaloh the one and only(:

I like you

2011-03-10T17:19:00.004+08:00

I like everything abt you especially when you smile.
Cos when you smile, it brightens up my day<3

♕

HAPPY BIRTHDAY FAHDLI!(:

2010-10-22T22:54:00.006+08:00

ME, CHERRY AND THE CAKE!<3

BIRTHDAY CARDS~!^^ <3

FADHLI'S CAKE~!<3

AND OBVIOUSLY THE MAN HIMSELF~!!!

DEAR FADHLI,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY!
OMG YOU'LL BE OLD SOON(X
ANYWAYS HOPE ALL YOUR WISHES AND DREAMS COME TRUE AND THANKS FOR BEING SUCH AN AWESOME FRIEND(:
I'LL ALWAYS BE HERE FOR YOU((:
hugs{x}
♕benitaloh

Well,
haha exams are over(:
AWESOME MUCH?!
and "o" level is like starting soon((:
So,
ALL THE BEST TO ALL THE SEC 4s <333333
[especially to the ones i know(: ]
Yesterday,
me and cherry baked Fadhli's cake
man,
it was tedious-.-
but it was fun cos well it was with cherry(BFF) and it was for our BFF
HAHAHAHAHAHAHA
then i went for training and guess what?!
cos there's like the haze,
we couldn't run._.
so i kinda went there for nothing
LOL much?
hmm anyways
cant wait for hols((((((((;
WOOHOO
hahahhahahaha
that's all for now!
hugs{x}
♕benitaloh(:

Gonna Live With It

2010-10-08T22:20:00.005+08:00

too much stress manz
and like so many things happening.
I just really want a break):
cant wait for the hols
THANK GOD THERE IS WEEKENDS AND HOLIDAYS TO LET US CATCH OUR BREATH<3
anyway, my phone is fixed and now i want a blackberry!
haha.
hmm im really tired
so so tired):
sighh.......
but A phone call made me relaxed and chill..
i really miss the person who called<3
wish she calls again(:
i love her alot.

ALL THE BEST TO EVERYONE FOR THEIR EOY AND 'O' LEVEL(:

hugs{x}
♕benitaloh

"A Smile is a curve that sets everything straight"
-Phyllis Diller

LOVE

2010-09-17T21:48:00.003+08:00

EVERYDAY'S THE SAME.

just fine.

2010-09-07T22:17:00.002+08:00

spoken from my heart<3

hmm these few days has been really really boring.

and seriously frustrating..

hmm

i realised that my hols are packed.

HAHA

anyways, im falling sick):

hugs{x}

♕benitaloh

when im with you, my life turns into a bottle full of jellybeans<333

finally.

2010-09-03T22:10:00.003+08:00

"I've always wanted to express myself but guess i aint that good."

OMG.

its like finally hols.

i could and would have died with another freaking week of school.

been abit distracted lately,

dont really know what but yeah whatevs.

everytime i thought i tried my best,

to others its like i tried very little.

GAWD.

it drives me crazy.

guess i'll bake and stuff

went out with wei si today.

was quite fun

HAHA

hmm bought all the stuff i wanted..

hugs{x}

♕benitaloh.

sometimes i wish you were my best friend.

what if?

2010-09-01T12:02:00.002+08:00

"If I had a second chance in life, I would not make the mistake I make. And that was falling in love with you."

my sunshine is gone;

2010-08-26T22:11:00.003+08:00

i use to look at the smile which brightened up my day.

that was until you stopped smiling.

goodbye sunshine.

its been a real boring week.

let me spell it out for you: B-O-R-I-N-G, with a big huge exclamation mark

homework, maths, homework, amaths, homework, maths, homework, chem, homework and so on..

it is like the most monotonous week i've ever had.

oh but guess what!

TEACHERS' DAY IS COMING~~~~!

(yipee!shouts with joy.)

so that means: baking muffins time((;

but yeah well, it also means lesser money in the future._.

im practically living on $1 for this whole week.

its amazing i even managed to buy recess.

ugh.

im gonna like sleep soon cos well,

firstly: im just a great good girl.

secondly: i just had training today.

thirdly: my coach made up jump steps.

fourthly: i had to run relay.

fifth-ly(sounds weird but whatevs.) :im just really sleepy

six-ly: and im just tired.

lastly: i just read the effects of what sleeping late can do to you when you continuously sleep late.

oh oh wait.

one last one: I DONT HAVE A BOOK TO READ.):

hugs{x}

♕benitaloh(:

I saw you today. you didnt see. people say we would get along well. guess they were wrong.

I want to talk to you but you are always surrounded by your friends.

I want to message you but fear stopped me.

I thought maybe we could be friends by hanging out. oh wait, we already are friends, correction actually its acquaintances.

I thought maybe we could talk under the sun abt anything. what I thought was wrong.

favourite quote:

the other side.

2010-08-20T18:34:00.006+08:00

"While I was dancing in the field, I was already in your arms."

no mood):

2010-08-13T22:31:00.002+08:00

okayy

im like so not in the mood for anything,

like im not sure why too?

but its kinda like a friday thing~~

hmm i wanna be happy~!

and and filled with the events that just makes my life

"WOW!"

but its quite hard,

considering the fact that no one is like asking me out..

aww

but i cant anyways..

i have my grandfather's bday((:

(at least thats something worth looking forward to..)

sigh. sigh. sigh.

what do i do?):

just save me someone seriously, from moping around):

hugs{x}

♕benitaloh(:

favourite quote:

surprise me already!

2010-08-12T22:18:00.005+08:00

Ice~cream makes me happy, but Chocolate and Ice~cream makes me happier(:

okay,

so today i fell down in class[AGAIN]

(i know right?so uber clumsy)

hmm yeah and its like my 2nd time already.

so i was like OW!!!

but it was quite funny(x

hahahaha

so life is the same.

GAWD

HAVE SOME DRAMA ALREADY!

so its like fasting month for Malays

jia you people!:D

then the canteen is so uber quiet i can die.

seriously.

yupps

so went to training,

and like ran

yay!run for your life~!

(i'm having a sugar rush now cos well, wait for it.)

so after that did the same, BLAH BLAH BLAH

then went to the best place in the world..

NTUC!!!!

YAY!

hmm

its like the best place in the world.

i bought so many things(:

and and and my little brother bought an extra kinder buono for me

awesome rights?

so i ate it and..

TA-DA!!!!

im hyper already(:

probably the sugar haha

yupps,

thats all

and seriously, surprise me already!!!!

hugs{x}

♕benitaloh(:

And my favourite quote for now is:

©im not weird. im just limited edition ®

distractions.

2010-08-06T22:55:00.002+08:00

this is the key to a diary.

its also the key to my heart.

today.

i went out with khaliun.

had a blast(:

bought my lime green wallet and stuff

now i have 4 friendship bands on my ankle.

happy much?(:

hmm

then i went for drums and i finished an AWESOME book called Jinx

tomorrow.

i have to go for my sister's concert.

haha

quite excited(shh. its a secret(: )

hugs{x}

benitaloh(:

something's bothering me but I can't quite put my finger on it.

and seriously, I've been quite distracted lately.

2010-08-03T20:42:00.002+08:00

all i need is a lifeguard who would save me when im drowning.

add colours to my life

2010-07-31T11:38:00.004+08:00

I really need you in my life cos you brighten everything up.

yesterday i had this church thing.

so i went to church and the service was quite good actually(:

then i had roti prata[FATTENING TO THE MAX]

and i made friends with a pair of twins.

one is called justin and the other is called marcus

haha

they are both very funny

and yeah...

haha

hmm

real bored

gawd

hugs{x}

benitaloh(:

A great friend's bday(:

2010-07-26T20:07:00.002+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY THIHA PINE:DDDD

may God bless you with an awesome bday and may all your wishes and dreams come true~!

know im always here for you and thanks for being such an AWESOME friend/kor?(:

haha

love ya always!(:

hugs{x}

benitaloh(:

okay so like now, im suppose to be studying

so much for that._.

haha

hmm abit bored

life is the same

yawn yawn

blah blah same thing happens everyday

i look at him and he ignores me

TYPICAL!

anyways

tata:D

hugs{x}

benitaloh(:

an AWESOME birthday(:

2010-07-26T19:36:00.003+08:00

okay i know i have dragged the birthday thing far too long so here it is:

before 12 midnight

at 11:58 pm, felicia wished and officially the first is

(1)Ruping

~yay!we have our winner!

(2)wei liang

~my dearest mother

(3)shannon

~my awesome cousin(:

(4)song tat

~my kor

(5)amirul shahh

~bff:D

(6)jill

~my high-class mei(:

(7)zheng jia

~my cousin((:

(8)KHALIUN!

~((: i heart my sister(:

(9)Adeline

~my bimbotic mother, thats why im bimbotic.

blame her!

haha

(10)Victor(:

~another of my bff((:

(11)Phyllis

~My AWESOME daddy((:

(12)Cherry:)

~my real awesome bff and clique best friend(: heart her too!

(13)Weisi(:

~my great ah-ma!(:

(14)Louis Leo

~a good friend(:

(15)Yueting(:

~my good friend(:

(16)Fadhli:)

~another of my bff and clique best friend(: heart ya too!

(17)Mayang Demetria something something..

haha

~another good friend of yours truly(:

(18)Xin Zhi

~another bimbotic friend of mine. influence is rather big haha

(19)Victoria(:

~a very awesome and close personal good friend of mine(:

(20)Zachary Ryan(:

~a good friend(:

(21)Cassandra

~a good friend(:

(22)Rain(:

~my another mother apparantly haha

(23)Diane((((:

~another great bff of mine(x

(24)Shavonne(:

~a good friend(:

(25)Irwin shah

~a good friend(:

(26)my aunt(:

Last but not least.

(27)Zavier(:

~a really really close good friend and kor(:

(28)& Zafri(:

~another good friend(:

~~clearing my inbox noww

cos i've finally done this

HAHA

i had an awesome time on 10 july 2010(:

thanks guys for bringing me out(:

~adeline

~cherry

~cheryl

~alphaeus

~louis leo

~emelin

~lynn

~delvina

~mayang

~yueting

~pamela

~andy

~irwin

*im sorry for anyone i missed out*-.-

hmm really had an awesome time with my friends and family and i got

(1) a baking book(:

(2)GOLDEN HEADPHONES!

(3)random stuff~~

(4)a green bag!(:

(5)markers!!!

(6)and and a necklace

(7)NOT TO MENTION

A VERY NICE VANGARD WITH WISHES(:

really awesome friends(:

hugs{x}

benitaloh(:

feeling grey

2010-07-09T22:30:00.002+08:00

If it's my birthday in just an hour or so,

aren't i suppose to feel extremely happy and high now?

nopes

im like the opposite):

i didnt know you could affect me so much

no matter how much and how hard i convinced myself that i dont like you

it still hurt alot.

that one expression hurt me alot.

sometimes i wish i could reverse time.

where everything in my life was still there.

now its not exactly the same.

thats an understatement..

its totally not the same..):

sigh

gonna cheer up soon...

tomorrow im already turning 15

going out with cherry and alot of others.

now abit like feel better but still ...~

hais anyways, here's

THE LIST OF STUFF I WANT(:

i think what i really want for my birthday is

>God's blessing

(a FREAKING must hehe)

>a GREAT day with my family and friends

(obviously~)

>an ipod touch with 32 gb

(but its so ex): )

>more markers

(i just gotta have more colours cos i need to decorate my dearest friend called the foolscap:D )

>the secret that only ANDY knows

(dear aunty andy, if you ever tell anyone abt it, you're dead meat*evil glare*)

>a wallet?(:

(it might come in handy haha)

>a BIGGER pencilcase?

(totally needed man x) )

>GOLDEN headphones~!(:

(total essentials man hah)

>bangles

(the type me and cherry tan tan like(: )

>earrings

(the chain types haha and diamonds OMG)

>more colour pens & PENS

(REALLY NEED THEM TTVM(: )

>a LIME GREEN crumpler

(i really want it): heh but its so ex)

>another bag!(:

(yay!)

anyways,

i hope all this sadness would JUST GO AWAY..

benitaloh

just be there for me when i need you

PEE-KA BOO!

2010-07-07T20:40:00.002+08:00

Oh Goodness me

there is 3 days left till im turning 15!

(It's such an OH MY GOSH thing..haha)

anyway,

my dearest lil er zi bought me seaweed from korea!

YAY~~~~~!

LOVE HIM TO THE MAX(:

HE IS SO AWESOMELY CUTE!(:

haha

so anyway,

i might be going out this sat to watch a movie with CHERRY&COMPANY®

i think what i really want for my birthday is

>God's blessing

(a FREAKING must hehe)

>a GREAT day with my family and friends

(obviously~)

>an ipod touch with 32 gb

(but its so ex): )

>more markers

(i just gotta have more colours cos i need to decorate my dearest friend called the foolscap:D )

>the secret that only ANDY knows

(dear aunty andy, if you ever tell anyone abt it, you're dead meat*evil glare*)

>a wallet?(:

(it might come in handy haha)

>a BIGGER pencilcase?

(totally needed man x) )

>GOLDEN headphones~!(:

(total essentials man hah)

>bangles

(the type me and cherry tan tan like(: )

>earrings

(the chain types haha and diamonds OMG)

>more colour pens & PENS

(REALLY NEED THEM TTVM(: )

yuppies

that should be all(;

and i really just want my school mummy and daddy and kor(s) to talk to me and treat me like last time..(:

anyways.

i really miss HIM

(it might be you? guess again!)

benitaloh

sometimes i think about you and realise you aint the one for me

2010-07-03T21:23:00.006+08:00

i dont have anyone in mind

just thought it was sweet(:

so actually

today i sorta baked(:

the sticky type of marshmallows((:

andy , cherry and pamela said it was nice

so its a SUCCESS?

YAY!(:

hehe

went to study a tiny tiny bit

then had dinner with family and now blogging

i feel like changing my blog skin

i want something simple yet attractive

tomorrow have church and maths tuition

haha

SO PACKED):

i just want a tiny break again:/

but it aint gonna happen

omg 7 more days!

im kinda excited yet not?

i dont really know how to say it?

hmm

i think i really want

>obviously, God to just Bless me..

hehe(:

>an itouch with like 32 gb or something(;

>an awesome day with my friends and family(:

>MORE MARKERS~!

(I know I have so many but a girl just needs her materials haha)

>this one's a secret:/

(I think only Andy knows?)

>A LIME GREEN(!!!!) CRUMPLER~!

>golden headphones(:

(like thats ever gonna happen...HAHA)

>AN AWESOME, LOUD AND TOTALLY BOOMZ BAG!

haha dont think theres any))):

>this one's another secret that no one knows sadly..):

>bangles?the cool-lio types(:

AWESOME

>and probably a wallet..

actually i dont know..

well

i think thats kinda all

will probably add stuff to the list like ouran high or something haha

gonna be the good girl i am and STUDY

benitaloh

sometimes the person you want may not be how you imagined him to be

INSPIRATION NEEDED BADLY?):

2010-07-02T22:24:00.004+08:00

school was okay.

was abit bored.

especially during mother tongue

gawd its YAWNZ...

planning what to do tomorrow..

maybe wanna bake.

IM TURNING 15 IN A WEEK'S TIME!

so old):

(no offence to those who is older than me)

gosh.

and pathetically,

i dont think anyone is free on the previous day to even celebrate with me-.-

SAD SAD LIFE

HAHA x)

anyway

i gotta take my pft before that

if not im gonna fail BADLY

and do i want that?

no no

yuppies

thats all

benitaloh(:

>> CHEER UP BRIAN LOW, MY AWESOME GOOD FRIEND(:

you said those words without meaning them.

whats the point exactly?

IM JUST FEELING GREAT!

2010-06-25T20:54:00.004+08:00

Actually,

im always great haha!

hmm

so yesterday had to go to some YOG briefing thing.

was real reluctant but i still forced myself

haha

and it was a good thing i went cos,

IT WAS AWESOMELY FUN AND REAL GREAT!

haha

made loads of new friends(:

whom i'll cherish((:

and i really learnt alot from the lectures and stuff(:

i x it

haha

so today had class bbq

was real tiring

and the smoke made me CRYY):

haha

but it was still nice?

haha

im feeling real happy for some reason(:

(actually i dont really know whats the reason)

HEHE

YAY

benitaloh

SMILING LIGHTENS UP EVERYONE(:

back to reality

2010-06-23T16:05:00.004+08:00

I wish I was always in a fairytale

The last few days overseas

made me forget what it was like to be away from reality.

Where time was for me to slowly use

It was nice to just lounge on the beach

and just didn't care about anything.

Totally AWESOME-ness(:

the beach was amazing to the max

and the hotel was super like WOW

& well,

everything was just GREAT

words can't describe it.

haha

benitaloh

Just finee(:

2010-06-18T23:15:00.004+08:00

YAY MY NEW SHOES~! haha awesome prints x)
LOVE THEIR PEARL MILK TEA TO THE MAX~ (:

well,

yesterday went "shopping"

sorta at parkway

haha

bought my shoes at cotton on cos it was like only $10?

AWESOME MUCH?

then bought KOI bubble tea-$2.20

super uber nice (((:

hearts it alot(:

haha

was quite fun i guess

woohoo

then today, had breakfast with my mother and lil brother at macs~

then waited for cherry

to go buy stuff and borrow books from library.

she was so hyper i kept on laughing haha

then she wanted the green cup from macs so went back there to buy an a UPSIZED meal

and YAY!

she got her AWESOME LIME GREEN CUP(x

AND

we went to the arcade for awhile.

played bball..

heh heh (MY ARMS ACHE ALOT, THANKS ALOT CHERRY TAN!)

then played racing.

the speed thing was terrible!so uber slow

haha

then we went home.

WOOHOO~!

so it was like quite fun

haha

thats all now((;

benitaloh

just relaxing

2010-06-15T13:15:00.002+08:00

actually, now im feeling rather bored and dazy.

just finished like 4 taiwan dramas.

it was practically a marathon!

haha

going overseas soon!

YAY

finally,

a lil getaway from the boring life of mine.

yawn to the max~

tomorrow have maths remedial till 12

and thurs and fri is the same~

i wish i could make my life more interesting and fun(:

and then,

instead of my life backfround being black and white only,

it would be

COLOURFUL!

yay!

anyway

thats all for now(:

xoxo

-benitaloh

who would be the one who takes away the black and white?

BIRTHDAY GIRL(:

2010-06-15T13:05:00.002+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO VICTORIA!

(thats the girl in the pink shades(: )

YAY!

MAY ALL YOUR WISHES AND DREAMS COME TRUE!

AND THANKS FOR BEING SUCH AN AWESOME FRIEND(:

LOVE YA ALWAYS~!

wishing you alot of love,

benitaloh(:

A Little Getaway

2010-06-11T11:41:00.002+08:00

i practically watched 3 dramas in just 2 weeks.

gawd,

maybe it would be even worse

without the dramas that wont even happen in real life.

YAWN ttvm~

so yesterday was like quite fun.

watched Nanny McPhee with Fadhli and Cherry

super uber nice(x

and apparently,

MY PHONE ISNT SPOILT!(:

YAY!!!haha

so gonna like find another drama to keep myself busy with before i go overseas

and slack like crazy~

better do homework soon haha!(:

yupps thats all,

xoxo

-B

just us.

2010-06-08T12:09:00.002+08:00

"Cause it's you and me

and all of the people with nothing to do

Nothing to lose
And it's you and me and all of the people
And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you"

-lifehouse

beauty is in everything

2010-06-03T15:28:00.002+08:00

a bouquet of flowers sure catches our eye.

but this 2 simple flowers is just enough for me

cos its beauty is really amazing.

Today is an exceptionally dreamy and lazy day.

The sun makes it all the worst.

And my phone is totally spoilt

cos i dropped it in the basin by accident..-.-

the repair would cost a bomb

and considering i dont even have at least $3

the situation is really bad.

uh nevermind then. maybe I'll just learn to live with my "high-tech" phone-.-

(notice the inverted comas?)

*sigh*

but the main point is..

SOME OF MY CONTACTS ARE GONE..)):

training was fine today.

really tried my best..yawn.

so exhausted

then went out with jolie and irwin for lunch haha

funny ttvm

then met my mum and lil brother and bought groceries and ate lunch with them

later going out with cherry for awhile i think..

tomorrow apparently im going to watch horses while i eat pancakes for breakfast..

haha

maybe it'll be fun?(:

life is so boring sometimes it kills..

maybe its up to ourselves to make it exciting.

haha

oh gosh..

my head really hurts for some reason..

sigh.

anyway,

hugs and kisses

-B

if life were a fairytale,

my prince would obviously be you.

in a daze

2010-05-27T18:12:00.003+08:00

one day, i would like to travel the whole world

and experience its different cultures(:

thats just a dream

but who says it wont come true?

maybe it would

feel so tired..

I dont really know why?

I feel like someone just took all my energy away..

so abit blurr and like just being bored..

thinking abt whats happening to my life lately..

haha

maybe im tired cos just came back from KL

they brought us shopping yesterday(:

nearly spent close to 200rm

haha

so today woke up late and made my way slowly to the stadium..

didnt feel like running but forced myself even though still sick..

haha

got my medal for 3rd place in 800m

real happy

THANK YOU LORD ;D

went home with emelin, cherry, lynn, fadhli and haziq

in the end

emelin cherry and lynn pangseh me and fadhli when we saw amirul and his friends

so in the end went home with amirul fadhli and his friends..haha

then amirul and fadhli abt to send me home when saw irwin walking home alone..

so said bye to fadhli and amirul

then walked home with irwin

haha

he ruffled my hair-.-

then pack luggage and tidy up my table..

so hungry so went out to have lunch with irwin..

talk and talk then we went home and i slept..

couldnt wake up but forced myself~

wanted to jog but washed hair already):

so uber sad cos the weather is so nice!

haha

well

thats all i guess..

pictures i'll upload asap?

too tired to do anything

gonna rot~

haha

hugs and kisses,

-B(:

fatigue

2010-05-19T19:19:00.002+08:00

OMGOSH

I took part in the 800m race,

i could have literally fainted but somehow i managed and got 3rd place!(:

YAY!

then I continued with the 4 x 100m race,

gosh was so embarrassed cos i ran too fast

and bang-ed right into Aryati

fell on the ground):

and scratched myself)):

sobs~

uber wet and..UGH..super gross but at the same time,

i felt so tired i could have laid there..

HAHAHAHA

CHERYL IS AN AWESOME PERSON!~

okay so like Khaliun's bday is around the corner):

so stress~!

and sadly, her birthday is on a tuesday which is when im going overseas

ARGH!

so im not sure what im gonna actually do for her?):

haha

tomorrow im not coming school anyway,

abit not feeling well and got dental appointment D:

GOSH

well,

im glad i even got 3rd place in the 800m thing(:

THANK YOU GOD!

hugs and kisses,

-B(:

just aint myself

2010-05-18T20:18:00.002+08:00

a good friend of mine is pissed at me.

i dont know whether to be pissed or sad.

but im both

she means alot to me.

now im wondering..

would she stand by me even if i change?

it isn't for me to decide whether i want to change or not.

i just do, i just change somehow.

everyone changes and all of us have a choice

but we just change somehow

i think she is my best friend.

i really mean it, my BESTEST FRIEND.

even if the whole world is against me, would she still stand beside me?

even if im lost, would she find me?

even if i have become a totally different person, would she bother to find out what happen and comfort me?

sometimes its very hard for me

times have always been hard for me.

it's hardly ever easy

so please understand

hugs and kisses,

-B

a very boring show?

2010-05-15T12:05:00.002+08:00

I watched this show in 25 minutes or less(:

COOL RIGHT?

IT WAS TOTALLY NOT FUN WATCHING IT

except sharpay, cos she is like quite cool

and ryan and corbin bleu are like also nice to watch

but the rest just turned me off..

YAWN.

hahahaha

im gonna bake soon(:

hugs and kisses,

-B

just me, you and the silent melody

2010-05-13T10:35:00.002+08:00

Just this simple song is enough.

oh gosh more birthdays?

2010-05-02T21:32:00.002+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY AMIRUL~!

YOU'VE BEEN SUCH AN AWESOME FRIEND,

ALWAYS LENDING ME A SHOULDER TO CRY ON

AND ALWAYS BEING HERE FOR ME(:

HOPE YOU ENJOYED THIS BIRTHDAY OF YOURS AND

KNOW I'LL ALWAYS BE HERE FOR YA!(:

hugs and kisses;xoxo

with love from,

benitaloh(:

its just complicated. and its getting boring.

2010-04-23T20:56:00.005+08:00

this is you and me.

its like this when we talk.

see the big huge space between us?

thats the barrier.

and i have no idea what to do next.

do you?

its so sad when your favourite person leaves you behind and not care about you anymore.

its a terrible feeling.

he let go of me pretty soon.

and it was really really hard to get over.

2 months have gone by since that incident

but it still replays in my mind.

i wanna do things to make myself forget you

to forget the torment you put me through

and the terrible pain you caused me.

ooh, i accidentally broke khaliun's fast=x

sorry jie):

gummies and chocolate are my favourite(s).

i saw you, but i pretended i didnt.

it doesnt make any difference.

okay so my blog is like dying.

cos no one reads it and gives a damn about it

so like yawn yawn.

whatever~

hugs and kisses

-B

THANKS ZAFRI FOR THE CAKE(:

2010-04-22T16:15:00.003+08:00

okay, i know it looks like crap but what can i do when i was in school the whole day, under the sun?plus, i give it a big big A+++++++++(x 100 and more)

it was a totally delicious cake and not just because its chocolate flavour

but its just super uber good!

think i should learn from him(:

then i should sell it. MUAHAHAHA

oh yeah, should i sell cakes?and sweets?

hmm...WONDERING..THINKING....

haha.(:

well, thats all(;

hugs and kisses,

-B

its time to put the past behind and forget you

cos another person has already replaced you.

everything is so boring.yawn

2010-04-20T17:38:00.002+08:00

Everyone thinks they know you, but they dont know your whole story.

Everyone thinks they know your name but they dont know your story.

Everyone thinks they are your best friends but they dont know your story.

Only some people who are truly your best friends, knows your name and your story.

ugh. so the exams are coming.

I manage to survive an entire day full of boring lessons. yawn.

drama in school is getting more boring.

nothing new is happening.

and I manage to stand at the drink stall for the whole of recess.

hmm. its rather boring nowadays.

so, im gonna continue this boring lifestyle by studying.

the whole "oooh its so exciting" facade is starting to wear me off.

YAWN.

hugs and kisses,

-B

more and more birthdays~

2010-04-20T17:32:00.003+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY NICHOLAS~!

YOU'VE BEEN AN AWESOME FRIEND AND A LOVING AND CARING BROTHER(:

GIVING ME LOADS OF LOVE(:

HOPE YOU GET WHATEVER YOU

WISHED FOR AND ENJOY YOUR BIRTHDAY((:

hugs and kisses,

-B

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JOLIE~!

2010-04-17T16:18:00.003+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JOLIE~!

hope all your wishes and dreams come true!(:

you've been an AWESOME friend, bringing lots of love to me(:

haha

thanks girlfriend

so enjoy your birthday!:D

hugs and kisses,

-B

cos of you?

2010-04-16T21:05:00.002+08:00

cos of you, tears are shed every single night.

cos of you, my heart feels empty.

cos of you, my heart aches when i see you.

cos of you, the past keeps haunting me with all the wonderful memories you brought me.

cos of you, i was hurt deeply.

cos of you, i thought no one loved me.

~-~-~-~-~-~-~-~-~-~-~-~-~-~-~

today was one of the not many happy days i had.

except i went out with my mum(which was quite funny haha)

other than that, i was either being pissed or just being lame..

haha

had a paper ball fight with amirul and Zong ru

HAHAHAHA

I WON GUYS~!

anyway,

gonna watch glee(:

OH AND IM LOVED BY WEI SI AND WEI BIN, THE WEIS'(:

hugs and kisses.

-B

i really miss ya to bits. guess i just have to forget you.

2010-04-15T15:45:00.003+08:00

this is the picture CHERRY drew(:

IT IS STILL THE SAME PICTURE, JUST THAT MY BROTHER AND ME COLOURED IT;D

its for our geog project(:

today was a bit slack?

yupps.

so i talked, what now?

sometimes i really wonder if you were the person i knew last time..

here's a love code:

when you love someone, you expect and trust the person not to hurt you.

makes sense?

hugs and kisses

-B

why, just why?why do you treat me like a complete stranger?

yawn

2010-04-12T20:12:00.003+08:00

are there such things as miracles?

-YES.

okay. so i went to bugis with cherry on saturday

not really crowded but it was okay i guess?

smelly though._.

yupps

bought an awesome bag(;

suppose to be for HIM but too ex so i couldn't give HIM

but gonna buy another bag for HIM

so the lastest news is that i hurt/sprained(whatever you call it)my ankle. AGAIN.

real sad?

and head was throbbing like mad

but still did amaths((:

im such a good girl(:

oooh exams are coming?

yawn more boring

oh Alphaeus bought me and cherry and ruping GUMMIES(:

THANK YOU!:D

anyway

hugs and kisses.

you use to make my life exciting

and when you werent there, it wasnt as exciting.

is it me or are you really not caring about me anymore?

do i really mean that little to you?

sigh.

2010-04-09T22:25:00.002+08:00

i wish life were as colourful as this muffin.

i wish life would be filled with such happy colours.

i wish life would be the best chocolatey taste in the world

i wish it would be filled with M&Ms raindrops.

i wish it would just be filled with excitement and wonder.

no heart break at all.

no hurt at all

nothing that can hurt us.
i bought chocolate~(:
THE WHOLE TRAY?((:
the cookies/crunchies i baked(;

people said it was nice?(:

it made my day though the people i wanted to give could not have it?):

hugs and kisses.

wondering whats next?

what happens when me and you stop caring for each other?

Maybe?

2010-04-08T22:25:00.002+08:00

DURING SCIENCE CHEMISTRY~
maybe i was meant to love you, and to always be with you.

just maybe..

just maybe God put me in your life.

just maybe God wanted me to always be with you.

just maybe you and i were suppose to be good awesome friends.

so during chem, was quite fun..i guess?(:

was suppose to bake today but didnt cos the recipe is lost):

bought bubble tea..AGAIN~

yay!

hugs and kisses.

benitaloh

sometimes

2010-04-06T17:45:00.003+08:00

sometimes i just want to be a nobody because when you're a nobody, you wont get hurt.

its been so long since i sat on a swing.

I remember the highest swing that would make me fly

I remember all so clearly the joy of swinging and the relaxation.

that i would forget everything and just swing.

I would close my eyes and let the wind whirl around me.

how soothing it was.

hugs and kisses.

you abandoned me when i needed you most.

2010-04-01T15:52:00.003+08:00

this picture really caught my eye so i decided to just use it?(;

well, updating..that person hasnt come yet?

boohoo

its no fun..

hahahaha

its no fun without YOU

heh heh..=x

so ms wee is gonna have a conference with all our parents and we were all like boo-.-

and today we had a paper ball fight!(:

yay

MUAHAHAHA

AMIRUL I WON~!

so like my tuition is cancelled-.-

rotting at home~

hoping cherry can study with moi?((:

DURING CHEMISTRY LESSON!

the mixture of some chemicals~

BOOYA!MY NICE CHEMICALS~ hahahahaha
YAY ME AND ZAIDAN'S FAVOURITE~GREEN!!!

yupps so thats all

haha

it was quite fun today?(x

hugs and kisses,

benitaloh

im still thinking

ITS LIKE BOOMZ!

2010-03-31T16:52:00.005+08:00

HAHAHAHAHA

im really crazy and hyper today?

BOOOOMZZZ DUDE

hahahahaha

see what i mean?(:

i love the picture above its like really AWESOME(:

been watching glee lately?

real funny(:

hahahaha

and school is just a teeny weeny bit boring these few days

okay fine

ITS UBER BORING~

Period.

hahahahaha

oh and it was like my lil brother's bday, then yueting's bday, then it was sean and zong ru's bday(:

like come on give me a break-.-

haha

but anyway, all their presents and what not went well?

although i gave sean and zong ru earlier cos the cakes only lasted for like that last day?

they said it was NICE;D

so im gonna say this:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY LIL BROTHER, YUETING, SEAN AND ZONG RU!(:

HOPE YOU GUYS HAD A GREAT BIRTHDAY((:

hahahaha

oh and another thing, did i tell ya that ZONG RU is my BEST FRIEND?((:

hahahahahaha

YAY!

anyway, yupyup

im gonna be a GOOD GIRL i am and go STUDY(:

haha

hope it rains more and hugs and kisses,

benitaloh(:

people ask me to forget you, but I just cant Bring myself to do so. but i'll try my best.

although i cant replace you, they say i can get someone to have that similar position.

you were my favourite and most comfortable person i felt with. thanks for the 6 months..(:

now, im wondering will that person ever come?

CHERISH

2010-03-26T17:45:00.002+08:00

heh. well today school was quite okay?

ms yong caught me eating during class haha

cos this morning helped my sister to do something so didnt have time to eat):

sorry ms yong?(:

haha

then was super sleep

this whole week, the whole class is like half-dead~

haha

had super late nights uh):

abit pissed off today..

nearly scream at them-.-

then after school, had some geog thingy..the person uber funny haha

had sandwiches and zong ru couldnt eat cos he was vegetarian?hahahaha

the whole class kept laughing..

im sorry i didnt cherish you.

i know the reason behind it though.

but i dont have the guts to write it out.

oh and another thing:

ZONG RU IS MY NEW BEST FRIEND(:

thats all~

hugs and kisses(:

heh gonna read finish my book((:

im just tired

2010-03-22T20:48:00.002+08:00

well,

today had training. super uber tired.

not only physically, but mentally as well.

so the person whom i lost is my friend again

and he treats me really good but what if the same thing happens again?

*sigh*

i feel super bad for what i did to him, sobs):

i really really dont want him to get hurt again cos he really means alot to me..

and he is really my best friend and true friend..

GOD PLEASE HELP ME!):

well, glad that fadhli, cherry and khaliun liked the bear(s)

wanted to buy for chocolate but in the end i didnt):

haha

yupyup

so imma gonna sleep earlier and do stuff~

yay

hugs and kisses(:

updating~

2010-03-21T20:20:00.002+08:00

hey hey!

yay.so i bought a pair of converse shoes and it costs me like 60 bucks):

broke to the max~

so went to malaysia haha(IT WAS DEFINITELY FUN AND A RELAXING TRIP)

but it was more cos of the company?

haha

childhood friends((:

yay

so went shopping at a shopping centre in malacca(amazingly i survived(: kidding)

haha

bought loads of clothes?(:

so yeah thats basically what i did?

on friday

had a church cell outing(:

went to celebrate daryl's bday(aka. derry)

haha

at somerset, saw weiliang(: (mummy)haha

went arcade cos derry wanted to(:

played jubeat and passed!

and then i saw the machine...

it was the machine stacker in which he spent alot of money on.

the same machine that made us bond more.

and the same machine that made us inseparable.

then after that, i completely became abit lifeless cos i kept thinking about him.

i kept thinking how to ask him to be my friend again.

anything was better than not being friends with him.

and then i stopped cos i realised he aint gonna be my friend again.EVER.

PERIOD.

so i became the hyper, random person again cos i was super tired also.

heh.

so thats kinda what i did?

yupyup

xoxo(:

its kinda hard to forget you cos you held a very big place in my heart and no one could ever replace you. i guess someone already replaced me so you have forgotten about me.im sorry for hurting you but im sure the person now can give you more happiness and will treat you better.

im going to learn to live without you and i'll try my best.

memories with you will forever be in my head and you were the bestest friend i have had in my life.so i guess this is goodbye.

just me?(:

2010-03-15T17:59:00.003+08:00

WOOTS

well,

been an interesting day so far?

haha

had music lesson, then had ms fong's lesson and then had A CLIQUE OUTING((: then had a maths tuition.

haha

the clique outing was funny

spent 1 and a 1/2 hours walking around searching for a nice place to have our meal.

haha

kept seeing putri, mayang and indra.

finally, guess where the nice place was?

MACDONALD'S):

super fat seh hahahahaha but was funny.

cherry ate damn freaking slow~

like a turtle!!!

*RANDOM*

haha

clique photos are very unglam so fadhli is gonna treat us to neoprints.

*abit lame~*

i so wanna watch all my shows but the person just aint there now):

so i gotta find someone else haha

yupyup so gonna update soon i guess

ADELINE IS A NICE BULLY ALTHOUGH SHE BULLYS ME(:

I HEART HER HAHA

mummy, dont you?((:

xoxo

people change. i realised that.but everyone deserves a second chance right?

including me?

A FEW HOURS LATER~

2010-03-12T22:23:00.003+08:00

ooooohhh

i baked in the end(:

went back to school to give delvina but she wasnt there-.-

so gave everyone else instead

hahahaha

brandon too ate 3-.-

the rest ate only one good thing if not i wouldnt have had enough to give the people i wanted(:

alot of people said it was nice(:

touched my heart and yay its a success?

dinner was great today(:

mama's cooking still no. 1!

then played with my sister's itouch for like dont know how long scared she scold(:

haha

but she didnt mind so yay

then hyper around for like what seemed forever(:

NOW DOING MATHS!!!

nevermind, maybe i'll have lesser homework if i start early((:

woohoo

super hyper now~

hahahahahahahahhahaha

OH GOSH!

2010-03-12T14:34:00.004+08:00

well, few days saw him only abit?

ignored him most of the time..muahahaha

yay

mood and days and life getting better:D

i just screwed up my blog so you gotta give me time(:

i still miss him though...

shalote, felicia, aishu,serene, benedict, ryan chiam and madeline joined the chinese thingy~

so ALL THE BEST?

cant decide if i should bake anot?

kinda hard to decide cos wanna sleep-.-

saw chocolate go home today((;

muacks to him hahahahaha

so, gotta a couple of projects, tons of homework and loads of movies i wanna watch):

gee

super duper STRESS~

kidding just need to keep managing time((: woohooo

hahaha

oh oh oh cherry is a scary berry seh(:

haha

suddenly hyper one(:

and adeline(my young mother) is a scary dude cos she whacks her own child(:

haha

fadhli is showing his crazy side nowadays~

keep taking my clip-.- haha and he is going crazy over this korean singer called YURI

auntie andy likes them too

haha

brandon too is showing me his siao siao side

haha

and emelin is showing me her crazy, random and hyper side AS USUAL

THESE ARE MY TYPICAL CRAZY FRIENDS I HAVE((: haha

YOU WILL SURELY LOVE THEM IF YOU KNEW THEM((:

haha yupyup

so anyway im gonna make my life better than it already is(:

so happy hols everyone((:

xoxo

CHOCOLATE!*jumps around((:*

STILL DECIDING WHETHER TO BAKE ANOT((:

2010-03-10T20:30:00.002+08:00

i wanna run away from all my troubles and problems):

i wanna run away from you

i wanna run away into the past

so we hurt each other.

so now you hate me and like i dont really know what to do

i could see how heartbroken you are-.-

so you got a new girl jeesh

so thats how much i meant to you

didnt know i meant so little?

did you really meant what you said?

are you happy without me in your life?i guess so.

since you're laughing so happily with THEM,

i shouldnt sit around and wish you just treat me the same

so i should deserve some happiness too right?

since you say none of this is your fault then fine

not as if you miss me so badly

*scoff* thats what you just want everyone to think

that maybe you're soft hearted and want me back as your FRIEND so badly

i just thought you were different..

i just thought you treated me the best than all my other big brothers i had

its feels wrong when i wanna talk to you abt something and you're busy talking to others abt other stuff?

just ask yourself the last time you talked to me about YOUR PROBLEMS

you talk to them more than you did to me

Im really at a loss..

i didnt mean for it to happen

sometimes we just gotta cherish what we have

it just sucks when you trust your friend so much and he doesnt trust you back and dont talk to you straight for some long time.

then he just walks away and dont bother about you

after that, he just leaves you for them.

thought you said you didnt like them?oh wait you lied..again

i ask you out and you turn me down FLAT

i ask you go somewhere with me to talk it out

gee

are you really that scared?

and you turn me down cos you're tired..AS IF IM NOT?

im trying my best to fix the situation, are you?

no. you just say you cant do anything about it. or you do you just dont bother?

i didnt know you gave up so easily

i think back to the days when we were still the best of friends and even though you were tired and stuff, you were always there for me, to go out with me, to study with me, to talk to me.

yeah i used to ignore those people who talked bad about you being an ass and i would always try my best to defend you.

WAS IT WORTH IT?yeah but i dont know about now.maybe yes?and maybe no?

you stare at me with cold eyes and it hurts..ALOT

as if we didnt share a special friendship and i was just nothing to you.maybe i was..

i didnt say you change, i didnt say i change till you said you didnt know me at all.

DID YOU EVER THINK THAT MAYBE IT WAS COS OF YOU THAT I CHANGED?

no right?cos you dont think its your fault. so everything is my fault?everyone has a part including them.

YOU ALSO INTRUDED INTO MY PRIVACY..dont ever forget..

but i didnt say anything about it like you did.

i still miss you even though you dont. i still care about you even if you dont care about me. i still wanna be your best friend and want us to be what we were last time even if you dont. and im not happy with you out of my life, im not like you who can move on faster, forgetting me so fast in 1 week.

BIRTHDAYS((:

2010-02-28T23:29:00.001+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY AUNTIE ANDY!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ZAIDAN!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHAVONNETAN!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY WEI JUN!

wow so many people's bday-.-

gonna go broke soon

anyway

not gonna blog soon so wishing ya guys a great bday!

love ya(:

benitaloh

WHEEEEE!

2010-02-27T18:10:00.009+08:00

"SQUEEZE"!!!!!MUAHAHAHAH

SO AWESOME;D

MY FAVOURITE;D
JUST ME AND RUPING MUAHAHAHA CHERRY IS LEFT OUT!!!!
RUPING'S ONE MAN SHOW HAHAHA

OOOOH RUPING SO HARDWORKING!!
HAHA!RUPING BECAME BIGGER!!!!and she is trying to cover it up-.-
CHERRY AND ME WERE LAUGHING AWAY WHILE RUPING WAS BEING HARDWORKING!!HAHAHAHAHA
RUPING SO WANTED TO HAVE HER NAME THERE BUT SHE DIDNT HAVE ONE TO SHOW HER NAME SO SHE USED HER PHONE..._.
WE WERE BEING RETARDED-.-
HAHAHAHA RETARDEDNESS!!
AWW ALL SO LOVING(: 2 SIDES OF EACH OF US(:
SO ROMANTIC?!HAHA
I LOVE THE BACKGROUND(:
OOOOH..LOOK AT US SO COOOOL;D
EMO~ HAHA FAILED I KEPT LAUGHING(:
SO NICE~HAHAHAHA
A COMIC STRIP MAIN FOCUS-RUPING HAHA AND CHERRY
i have no idea what i was doing..
HAHA RUPING TURNED INTO AN ESKIMO..MUAHAHAHAHA I WAS TRYING TO LAUGH AT HER GLAMMILY(new word-.- it isnt a real word)BUT FAILED!!HAHAHAHA
THIS IS JUST WEIRD BUT CHERRY LOVES IT HAHA AND SO DOES RUPING(:
LOOK HOW CHERRY BECAME SHORTER..HAHA

IM BACK!! YAY I BECAME HYPER! CHERRY AND RUPING CAME OVER TO DO PROJECT WAS SUPER FUN KEPT LAUGHING TILL STOMACH HURT HAHAHAHAHA THEN I LAUGHED TILL I TEARED IT WAS SUPER FUNNNNNNNN AND WE CAM-WHORED SO MUCH WOOOOOHOOOOO!!!

xoxo

CRAZY AND HYPER BENITALOH(((:

im sorry?

2010-02-23T14:50:00.002+08:00

the first time we met, we were like best friends
now i made things complicated and im really sorry
i've already kinda tried my best by writing you that letter..
whatever i wanted to say was in that letter but you didnt read it
i expected it
if i tell you i'll change, would you be friends with me again?
i became someone else in just a while and im really sorry

IM SORRY FOR ALL THE TROUBLE I CAUSED YOU GUYS..
all of you..

so today was just abt as bad as last week and yesterday
was suppose to go out with phyllis and zavier but didnt feel like it
i feel like i have no more happiness in me
i dont know why though
being with you guys was just about the happiest days i had but it only lasted like a while
these few days kinda sick and headaches got worse..
my ankle is better but havent go doctor yet
got bleeding nose recently
really bad and ulcers are really killing
well i guess thats it?
yesterday was shaun dennis's bday and today is irwin's bday(:
yay
xoxo..(:

EMPTY PROMISES?

2010-02-13T14:45:00.002+08:00

i really thought you were my best friend
didnt know it came all tumbling down just cos of that SOMEONE or SOMETHING
i dont wanna care about what you talk with her about
i just wanted you to not neglect me
but you did anyway
we were really close but you chose to let them come between us
you made me a promise and i was sure you were gonna fulfill it but you didnt
now you give me a cold shoulder..
i just wanted to stand by you and be your best friend FOREVER
but you left me
so im left all alone

well
nothing much happened recently..
haha
yesterday went out with weiliang and others
benedict and me made a bet haha
to see if he cared anot
haha
hope i win(:
WOOHOO
fadhli went yesterday(:
benedict me weiliang fadhli and kai qiang laughed till our stomach hurt
haha
it was a great day(:
then after that went to meet cherry to do our nials
the colours were super bimbotic(:
haha she experimented on me and we had a little bit of fun as well
haha
yupyup that was all

happy chinese new year everyone:D
xoxo
benitaloh

SIMPLY MY LIFE..

2010-02-12T12:04:00.003+08:00

well..
been real lonely lately..
pretty pissed and sad at the same time
i mean its like totally unfair):

uh..
anyway
on wednesday me and cherry baked at her house(:
woot woot
it helped me to stay calm
haha
what rubbish its just FUN

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY EVERYONE!~
AND HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR;D
well..
gave out all the chocolate me and cherry made
haha
yay
there was ppl who said it was nice(:
its a success(((:
WOOHOO
gonna go out later
i hope he comes......
haha
anyway
yay yay
stay happy everyone(:

xoxo
benitaloh

TIRED..

2010-02-08T23:19:00.002+08:00

okay so today wasnt exactly what i wanted my day to look like
it wasnt very great-.-
well..
i just realised that you totally have 2 sides which are ANNOYING
then
you abandon me
you dont talk to me
and you dont care about me

so you are from hero to ZERO
maybe not the type of friend i would like
and my friend is so great that i love him to bits(should hear the sacarsm in my voice)-.-
so basically things arent going very well

i thought like we were the PERFECT friends
guess i was wrong
beat tired from all this crud
gonna get some sleep soon
cheer up brandon(:
xoxo
benitaloh

EXHAUSTED

2010-02-03T20:53:00.002+08:00

well..
i wouldn't say that this week is my toughest week
its just not what im used to):

well..
got a few secrets that are meant to stay secrets bottled up in me
got too much stress
HAHA
so today went out with song tat, zavier and wei liang to have lunch
it was a damn late lunch
well we laughed like crazy and just had fun
haha
ate rosti^^

projects are like piling up and i think im gonna be sick?
valentines day is coming
haha
its such a weird thing to have it on the same day as chinese new year
aww...
haha
well..
gotta like go and study
i very guai one(:
YAY ME
xoxo(:

2010-01-15T21:13:00.002+08:00

okay....i know i havent been updating HAHA
but no one reads it anyway(:
so anyway
things have been real tough lately?
new batch of sec ones
omgosh they super cute la and super small-.-
FEEL LIKE SQUEEZING THEM!!!!
(shh dont tell them?)

today was cca day
haha
and i was walking around with my sprained ankle?
saw my lao ah gong-MR JAMES CHEW and my good friend-MR AIKCHUAN
hahahaha
after cca day
irwin,eddie,jonathan and me stayed and waited for band ppl
OMGOSH
they take like forever to come out of that band room?omgosh super long
haha
waiting for khaliun was like OMGOSH?
freaking long
haha
anyway
took bus then went home

real tired and sleepy.......
*sigh*
hais...
got to like be a "GOOD" girl
and go do my maths-.-

BORING!!!

2009-12-29T14:05:00.002+08:00

heyhey
sorry for not updating
didnt bother
haha
this hols were packed like dont know what

yupyup
well
there were a few people's bday(s)
then i made a new kor
he is super nice to me

then went to vietnam and stuff
then camp
christmas
and other exciting stuff

MERRY CHRISTMAS(:
xoxo

HAPPY B'DAY(:

2009-11-21T17:35:00.002+08:00

Oh wow!
MY MOTHER'S BDAY IS TODAY(:
WOOOOOH!
gonna have dinner at some restaurant or something like that
man i miss our hotel visits and buffets?
haha
then we gonna watch a christmas carol(3D)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUMMY!
HAVE A BLESSED BIRTHDAY!(:
xoxo,
yours truly(:

haha
my lil brother was awarded his bronze medal for swimming today(:
and after training, salleh, wei bin and me went to fair price to get something
hahahaha
thanks dudes~

yesterday, felicia , hanyi and me went out
it was pretty fun(:
haha
then we all went home

hahahahaha
well,
cant keep the food waiting(:
hahahaha
xoxo
HUGS AND KISSES TO YOU!((:

FILLED WITH TEARS

2009-11-05T20:52:00.006+08:00

omgosh..
last friday was my last day of school):
and i was just starting to love school again..
haha
gonna miss the times i had with the class..
with
-FELICIA
-CHERRY
-SHALOTE
-VICTORIA
-ZACHARY
-XIN ZHI
-EMELIN
-FADHLI
-ZAFRI
-ADELINE
-PUTRI
-and SO MANY OTHERS(;

we shared blood, sweat and tears
haha
i totally make it sound like we are gonna graduate and we aint gonna see each other again-.-
haha
im really, really gonna miss the GOOD GOOD TIMES(:

haha
well,
today i had training
ran in the rain;D
WENSIEW FINALLY CAME-.-
the training was pretty slack
and it was quite fun also
haha
hopefully i wont get sick?
haha

well, im done posting
gonna play sims now
WOOH!;D

UNTITLED~

2009-10-23T16:20:00.003+08:00

HEY EVERYONE!
TODAY IS PUTRI'S BIRTHDAY(:
LETS SING HER A BIRTHDAY SONG!(:

THIS IS FROM YOURS TRULY(:
HAPPY BIRTHDAY PUTRI!
YOU HAVE BEEN SUCH A GREAT FRIEND, ALWAYS LISTENING TO ME AND ALWAYS BEING BY MY SIDE NO MATTER WHAT(:
YOUR SENSE OF HUMOUR REALLY MAKES ME ENJOY COMING TO SCHOOL MORE OFTEN
AND WHEREVER YOU GO, YOUR LAUGHTER BRINGS JOY!;D
-this is so romantic and it sounds wrong coming from me..
ANYWAY, HOPE ALL YOUR WISHES AND DREAMS COME TRUE!;D
xoxo
BENITALOH(:

THIS IS ANOTHER NOTE FROM YOURS TRULY TO FADHLI!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY..
and so on and so fourth...blah blah blah..[i already written it once, dont wanna re-write it!;P]

I CANT BELIEVE THEY EVEN WORE THE (BIMBOTIC) GLASSES(:
IT WAS SUCH A FUNNY MOMENT(:
ANYWAY,
HAVE GREAT BIRTHDAYS YOU TWO(:
hahahahaha

IM SUPER HYPER NOW=.="
I BAKED LIKE SWEETS FOR MY OLDEST SISTER AND CHERRY AND OTHER PEOPLE(:
HOPE EVERYONE LIKES IT(:
haha(:

xoxo

Clueless..

2009-10-21T21:28:00.002+08:00

i just dont get you..
we are so close yet so far,
you aren't happy, i try to cheer you up
but how can i do that without you telling me the problem?

oh man....
my results are okay i guess
my mother says its okay(:
well,
thats really nice of her(:

haha
tomorrow i have like dental appointment again..
last week, i didnt go cos the doctor was on MC
hais..then they go postpone to like next year so my mother was super pissed?
so its changed to tomorrow):
real scared):

aww..
FELICIA is down with fever and im down with like bruises on my elbow (STAINED WITH BLOOD)
SONG TAT is so not cheering up):

oh man..
i dont know what to do):
CLUELESSNESS!!!):
aww..

FELICIA:
GET WELL SOON DARLING!(:

SONG TAT:
CHEER UP KOR(: AND FEEL BETTER(:
IM ALWAYS HERE FOR YOU(:

EVERYONE:
CHEER UP AND JUST CHILL(:
EXAMS ARE OVER(: WOOOOOOH(:

FADHLI:
HEY BEST FRIEND!
YOU REALLY ROCK MY WORLD(;
TOMORROW YOU ARE TURNING 14!(OFFICIALLY WHEN THE CLOCK CHIMES 12 MIDNIGHT)
HAHA!YOU WILL GET TO EXPERIENCE THE TORTURE OF BEING A YEAR OLDER(:
ANYWAY,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY!(:
HOPE ALL YOUR WISHES AND DREAMS COME TRUE AND ALWAYS KNOW IM HERE FOR YOU(:
HAHAHAHAHA(:

XOXO,
hugs and kisses
BENITALOH(:

ah...

2009-10-13T15:40:00.002+08:00

exams are officially over(:
WOOOOOOH!(:
tmr going out(:

SONG TAT!
-all the best for your exams(:
once you finish, we go out okay?

hahas
hais
so many ppl birthday):
not enough money buy):
gotta save up for my oldest sister's 21st bday(:
hahas

thursday i got dental check up):
scared pain leh..
hais..

ANYWAY,

THIS IS TO ALL THE PEOPLE HAVING THEIR BIRTHDAYS IN OCTOBER!(:
HAPPY BIRTHDAY!
YOU ARE A YEAR OLDER!~but young at heart(:
THANKS FOR ALL THE TIME YOU HAVE SPENT WITH ME(:
ENJOYED AND APPRECIATED IT LOADS((:
LOVE YA ALWAYS

xoxo
BENITALOH(:

2009-09-18T22:37:00.002+08:00

i knew you changed but
i didnt know it was such a big change
you want people's attention then do it another way
dont do it this way

i learnt that when you are irritated with someone,
whatever that person do,
irritates you and annoys you
thats exactly how i feel abt you

suddenly, we dont seem like friends anymore..
im sorry,
but sometimes you just got to give the person time and space
i really wish i could just be frank to you but..
im so sorry..
i cant bring myself to do it..
to hurt you
to say things that is bad to you
so many people care about you
and its all the people i want to care abt me

maybe we weren't meant to be in each other's lives..
to be friends..
i dont know..
im not in such a good mood now..
im so sorry

xoxo
hugs and kisses
benitaLOH

2009-09-15T19:38:00.002+08:00

uh....
nowadays feel so stress..
oh my gosh..
sometimes you really pissed me off..
but then again..maybe its just me?
[DOUBT IT]
oh i dont know..
oh goodness gracious
my head hurts so much..
OUCH..

should i just be hyper?
okay;D
give me a minute..

1 MINUTE LATER
YAY!
gonna study soon((:
i very guai one hor!!!!
everyone..
PLEASE NOTE THAT SHALOTE'S MILK&CO. is back in business as we have found a new supplier..
our old supplier didnt have anymore milk=.="
yeah
i know
totally ridiculous

hahahahaha
im going out to study tmr(:
WOOOOOOOOOH(:
hahahahahahaha(:

well
xoxo
hugs and kisses are attached when i say farewell(:

PS-IM STILL PISSED(:
SHH! ITS A SECRET(:

Trust

2009-09-12T12:53:00.002+08:00

to trust someone
it sure is hard
then to have someone "betray" you..
must have been hard to get over
you thought she was your friend till she stabbed you in the back?
hah
you may hate her
then you think abt what she did
maybe it helped you or benefited you
yeah
but you are still not happy with her
then comes revenge

life is really unpredictable
tsk tsk
God shall help me(:

Hols are in..so are the books):

2009-09-05T16:25:00.000+08:00

SCHOOL IS FINALLY OVER(:
yeah..
but the worst part is..
my phone is like spoiled):
using spare phone now..a useless spare phone which cant sms but can call..YAY..
oh nevermind
maybe i can like cut down on my messages(:
so maybe its a good thing?
shalote went with me to send my phone in for repairing..
its as if it died and had a funeral that only 2 ppl went, me and shalote==
anyway,so sweet of shalote right..?coming with me(:
aww!
haha
then i left my POSB card there so went back=.="
haha
yesterday went to my childhood friend's party
(it was her 21st bday)
the chalet was quite fun(:
but it was real boring
and it was also my daddy's bday and someone bought a cake for him(:
so sweet
sang happy birthday song to him and stuff(:
hahas

well..
clarence and chee kiat nearly fought==
cos clarence keep making fun of chee kiat's surname or sth
yeah
so chee kiat dont angry already okay?
hahahaha
SONG TAT-dont angry too(:
CHARITY TAN!-happy 21st bday(: GOD BLESS((:
DADDY(:-HAPPY BDAY(: TODAY WE GOING CELEBRATE YOURS;D

yupyup
thats all
xoxo
hugs and kisses

2009-08-26T20:56:00.000+08:00

this few days school is so uber boring?
its like the same
blah blah blah
training is all the same
but today felicia was like drawing in class then her hand became red=.="
I GOT MY EX-CO BADGE!
hah!
and then there is this weird desperate sec 1 girl called liyana or sth na-na(sorry didnt know how to spell?)
then she likes amirul=.="
so i was obviously like OH MY GOSH
and then everyone else is also like the same?
so to save his ass
i had to like always appear wherever she is to check on her if her eyes will stalk him for the rest of his life..
tsk tsk
young children nowadays are so weird=.="
so damn freaking young then want to have an adult life..
tsk tsk
typical!!!!!!
HAH!

okay imma getting super duper ultra ooper bored):
help help(:

hahahaha
xoxo
hugs and kisses to everyone(:

2009-08-06T21:23:00.000+08:00

OMGOSH!
today i slept in like alot of classes):
but actually its like not important ones=)
hahaha

yupyup
yesterday SONG TAT became my brother((:
WOOOH!
YAY!
and i think he is a good one=)
hahahaha

i think everyone thinks my blog is dead=.="
but who cares?
hahahahaha
yeah
so tmr is like national day celebrations..
hahaha
HAPPY BDAY SINGAPORE?(EARLY)

we lost for floorball):
DONT BE SAD OKAY GIRLS?
CHEER UP DARLINGS!((:
plus cherry got hurt):

LOVE YA ALL ANYWAY(:

TO CHERRY:
si biantai!
must faster recover okay?
love ya loads(:

2009-08-04T19:50:00.000+08:00

to fall asleep in never-ending sleep
would be great but sometimes you just gotta
wake up and face the music
right now, im gonna let you go
to free myself from the torture
and to live my life to the fullest
no more tears,
instead
more laughter(:

goodbye forever ms whiney and hello ms smiley(:

hahahahaha(:
its so fun!
today, i laughed until my stomach hurt
it was such an unforgettable moment and i loved it to the fullest
no more tears
thats the one thing i dont need right now
right now,
i need more laughter(:
yupyup
im gonna free myself from the torture i was once suffering
this is my world and its gonna end right here, right now:D

BLESSED 14TH BIRTHDAY(:

2009-07-12T20:35:00.003+08:00

OH MY GOSH!!
I LOVED FRIDAY THE 10TH OF JULY;D

FOR THOSE WHO WISHED ME, THANKS AND LOVE YA LOADS!!!!!!
okay
so received loads of soft toys and a chinese book and a big big balloon and a key chain and other things(:
PS-->I GOT SIMS 3!!!
hahahahaha
did relief duty in the morn with fadhli and it was super funny
then after school
i went out with adeline, lynn, cherry, eddie, ryan[loi] and yueting(: and chee kiat[met him half-way]
ate at manhanttan fish market
then went to make my screen cover and bank in money
then went to play at the playground
dropped my phone then got a big scratch): [but good thing got screen protector]
then had a small cake fight with ryan..
super sticky after that
hahahaha
then later went to meet another friend to take my present then went to HOLLAND V
with my family and ate a lovely italian dinner(:

that day was the best(:
all my friends were there
I wanted some people to wish me but they didnt):
AND
THANK YOU GOD!!!!!

stay happy(:

friendship

2009-07-04T21:28:00.002+08:00

i cut a friendship today..
i didnt mean to but i did it out of anger
doubt the person will even read this post
he got mad and i got mad
then i broke it
more like say i will disappear from his life

maybe it was never meant to be that we were gonna be friends
doubt we will ever be again
maybe if i werent that persistent?
but if someone wants to give you a present you should just jolly well accept it not reject it
anyway
you wont ever see me again
i wont appear in front of you anymore
maybe that will make you happier
sorry i keep pestering you
goodbye forever...

trust..

2009-07-04T21:25:00.001+08:00

i broke 2 promises yesterday..
thats what i just found out=.="
and a friend told me that if i broke a promise, means i broke the person's trust):

well..
to the 2 friends i broke my promises to..
i want to win back your trust asap(:
maybe before my bday or after..
but please just forgive me?

PROMISES ARE SUPPOSE TO BE BROKEN SINCERELY

2009-07-01T19:19:00.002+08:00

I made a very big mistake on the 27 of june 2009, saturday...
I broke the promise i made with her..
i wont tell you the name of my very good friend but now
both of us arent like we were last time
before that saturday

Ever since then, i have regretted getting that thing from you
nowadays your attitude towards me have changed
you have a cold attitude towards me
actually, to be honest, i didnt really hear the promise cos i was thinking of something else but if you said i broke the promise then i guess i did
but
i just wanted to give you a surprise...

Since school reopened, i am so regretful for doing that..
even if i wanted us to still remain the same
it wouldnt cos no matter how close we are, there is still gonna be that barrier between us...
although we werent like before
i kept remembering the times we spent together and knew that you meant a lot to me
guess we wont ever be the same

anyway,
to the friend i broke the promise to..
SORRY):
although you say you forgive me
i dont think you fully have...

POP!GOES MY HEART

2009-06-30T17:29:00.004+08:00

*sigh*
oh my gosh
i think my heart pop alr
never see you for so DAMN long
*sigh*
what you want me to do dude?!
haiyo...
miss you too much):

haha
anyway
YAY
i listened in class today(:
YAY ME!!!
and..............
TRANSFORMERS RULE\m/
ANYWAY

yipee for everything(:
dont really wanna blog anymore cos its real boring(:
yeah
so maybe like a few days later then blog
TATA(:
love you all^^

loving you in secret

LOVE YOU(:

2009-06-29T18:15:00.006+08:00

ah...
never turn up wor today):

sad to bits

but you know what?
i also dont know why like that so whatever(:

AMIRUL!
cheer up(:

XIN ZHI!
dont angry la):
sigh
wishing the things i wanna have on my bday would be there?
oh
i also want an i-touch(:
loving you secretly..

GOODNESS ME:O

2009-06-28T17:09:00.002+08:00

hahahahaha(:
i really want this stuff for my bday on the 10th of july(:
all this stuff are like so ex): but i still want them
hahahahahahahahaha
im like so crazy over them(x
YAY(:

list of things i wanna have for my 14th b'day(:
1.THE SIMS 3!!
2. BOYS OVER FLOWERS-the whole show(:
[i still want the disc although i watched it alr(x]
3.a normal wallet(:
4. A BAG
5.a pencilcase?-to put all my pens in cos my current one has to split into 2(x

oh gosh..
i think thats all..
hahahahaha
most importantly,
i just want my friends with me(:

LOVE YOU ALL(:

BACK FROM TAIWAN

2009-06-15T16:29:00.003+08:00

hey((:
back from taiwan people(:
was not very satisfied with this trip so my daddy and mummy says they will bring the whole family again next year or sth..
haha
went to hualien and looked at scenery and took loads of pictures(:
and seriously!
it was damn freaking hot!!
but cooler than singapore(:
whoever said that the mountains were cold
IS DEFINITELY WRONG!!

went there then like saw Jane Goodall
quite popular for saving chimpanzees
so YAY for meeting her?(:
haha
then when came out of airport saw Vivian Lai
haha
quite cool(:

then my father's friend's daughter saw ethan ruan/ruan jing tian
near our hotel area but sadly we didnt
and my sister was sad to bits
haha(:
went to ximenting
was looking for a bag
but didnt find any):
so nevermind la
haha
then we ate dinner around 10+
but my 2nd sister and i werent hungry[actually i was really hungry but i just tagged along with her cos i didnt wanna eat what the others were eating=x]
ps--->if you call that spoilt..should see other ppl first(:
yeah
so my and my sis went around looking for an idol shop and the place was super duper huge(:
like a maze or sth
dont really know how ppl can like cover the whole place in one day but anyway we only had 2 hours cos we went to a mountain before that..
was a waste of time but nevermind cos it was the experince(:
haha
yeah
so found the idol shop and bought loads of things which had superstars' faces on them((:
SUPER HAPPY;D
haha

well the flight was not very bad
my sister lost her ipod?
and my mother, my sister and my stomach was super pain..
and the food to and fro were kinda gross..
to taipei-FISH
to singapore-CHICKEN
then had ice cream as a dessert
coming home was Häagen-Dazs
some choclate flavour
so not my taste..but was very soothing((:
haha
yeah
then watched finish confessions of a shopaholic cos on the way to taipei watched race to witch mountain and confessions of a shopaholic half-way
so finished the movie and watched CORALINE after that
my gosh
coraline is like a very scary thriller
and is like super nice(:
LOVED IT TO BITS!!!!
i think gonna watch again soon cos my mother wants to rent it and stuff((:
heehee
and the food?
i think only the street food was nice and FRUITS were like heaven
cos when we went to hualien it was like native food and was all VEGETABLES!!
even though i like veggies, it was kinda unbearable..
haha
so when we saw chicken and fish
we were like YAY(:
haha
whoever said taipei food was good
is also wrong
haha
but all in all
it was okay(:
except for some probs....
haha
only certain ppl know
so yeah cant post/tell you guys(:
sorry i cant tell you guys?
not exactly
so yeah whatever
haha
it was STILL an unforgettable experience(:
STAY HAPPY PEOPLE(:
LIKE I AM NOW(:

TO ALL MY DEAREST FRIENDS

2009-06-15T16:27:00.001+08:00

haha(:
dedication to all my friends who helped me with the "passerby"
i think they were real nice to help defend me((:
and i am VERY HAPPY to have such GREAT FRIENDS like them;D
heehee((:

LOVE YOU ALL!!!!(:

ah, camp is over(:

2009-06-07T18:02:00.004+08:00

*sigh*
YAY;D
camp is finally over(:
went with putri, justin, brian, amirul, masuri, amanda and irwin[from 2e3](:
the first day was kinda boring since we only played one game of netball then eat..
and trust me..
this camp is like only abt food, Food, FOOD!!!
hahaha
every meal will have at least chicken xD except breakfast xD
then the second day was like workshops from morning till 4+
bored to the max..
brian and justin was like sleeping=.="
hahaha
then later at night had camp fire((:

YAY CAMP FIRE!!
CAMP FIRE'S BURNING NOW!!((:
[sorry if abit hyper cos just came back from camp and is super sot sot now(:
-->this is what you get from sleeping in an oven=x]
hahaha..then was like slacking from 10 pm till 11pm with justin and brian
cos i was like waiting for amirul
so that i can like receive my hug..
then super duper long lor..
then after that brush teeth.. wash face..then another oven night=.="

then today morn was like 7.30 wake up but then 8.30 assemble
so played poker games with amirul, putri, masuri and amanda outside the girls' bunk A
then had breakfast..[consisted of noodles and CHICKEN hotdog..again with the chicken!!haha..with limited edition diluted milo;D]
haha..
then had to do chores..
WASH TOILET~!!!guys toilet some more=.="
then my group leader had t0 pick up shit..
gross much??
TOTALLY!
hahaha

then went to silat federation at bedok north
SUPER DUPER COOL CAN?!?!
then learnt some cool stunts
then said our final goodbyes..):

then mr yupp came to see us..(:
his lil son is super duper CUTE!!xD
then the school had catered a bus for us
the bus was super smelly can??
then all 8 of us were like laughing all the way from bedok till school!!
haha
then we said goodbye(:

WAA
THE WORST PART OF THE CAMP WAS I THINK
AT NIGHT!!!
it was super freaking hot..
like an oven like that
then keep sweating and sweating like a mad dog like that=.="
but good thing it was the last night((:

whoever said that night was cold
is so totally WRONG!
haha
no offence=x

and the camp was like a prison but im glad i went for it?
cos i met new ppl((:
AND I MADE NEW FRIENDS;D
haha

thats all now cos i need to do homework and pack for tmr's taiwan trip..
haha
see you guys asap((:
ALSO HAVING A TOOTHACHE NOW..):

2009-06-02T14:27:00.003+08:00

LIFE IS SERIOUSLY NOT LIKE A FAIRY TALE
i just learnt my lesson of it

life have up(s) and down(s)
but
its not the same with my life
every single day i quarrel/get angry at my family members cos they say things that sometimes irritate or pisses me off
hais...
must work harder to not be so easily angry

another thing
im not sure whether i should just ignore HER/just make sure her life in school is hell
rather have a friend than an enemy
so must control=x
but sometimes seriously feel like smacking her
=.="so much for control over my anger.......

hais...
wish someone would just seriously help me)):

FRUSTRATION

2009-05-29T20:05:00.003+08:00

what the hell??
you snatch my friend still not enough uh?
everything i have also want from me
my great guy friend also you must flirt with..
and of all ppl, you must flirt with the one i treasure most is it?
WHAT EXACTLY IS IT THAT YOU WANT FROM ME?
you stick to my friends like leech like that
stalker uh?
anyway
yeah
i shouldnt judge a book by its cover
however, i already see through your good and bad points
only target quiet ppl
you know im so sick and tired of you
i know you are sick and tired of me too
so YAY
we dont have to see each other for the next 4 weeks
thank goodness to that!!!
and you seriously want me to have no friends right?
too bad!!
cos i have true friends lor..
and you bully and tease my lil bro for what?
they together your business meh?
no one asks you care leh
you know you would be in trouble if only that other one person didnt tell him to do anything to you?
seriously you know
i try and just like you and see your "good" points
but honestly speaking i dont really see any[sorry if its offending but sadly its true]
and seriously
you are just out to get me and my friends right?
you wanna break up our relationship right?

SEE ME HURT THEN YOU HAPPY RIGHT?
JUST GET OUT OF MY FREAKING LIFE!!!

my most favourite things(:

2009-05-28T21:05:00.003+08:00

THE SIMS 3((:
my favourite ice-cream store((:
my favourite bubble tea place-pearl milk tea=YAY(:

and much more..
wish the things in my birthday list would all be fulfilled..
haiz..
wish my shooting star would arrive..

sighwould wishes ever come true?

2009-05-28T20:56:00.003+08:00

sigh..
wished all the things i want on my birthday wish would MAGICALLY come true..
loads of things i want but will never get)):
SAD TO THE MAX!!!!

these few days, school quite boring..
movie after movie
and relief duty-->really tiring)):
and aikchuan kept asking for more relief duties..
haiz..
somemore always give relief paper to wrong teachers=x
blurr me)):

YES!!
tmr last day of school till my relaxing holiday becomes hell
everyday also got homework
must well not have holiday=.="
well..but better than nothing
just think of my Taiwan trip can liao((:
yipee dipee!!

haiz..
so sian leh these few days..
yesterday was quite fun
had duty for meet the parent session for 2n(s)
then super fun
me and fadhli are such great partners!!!xD
we kept dancing and khalif was like laughing..[for once=x]
haha
then got a group of soccer players come crowd around me and ask if i am single=.="
OF COURSE I AM LA!!DUH=.="
then the last guy seriously asked for my number..
freaked out..hahaha

then today my turn go with my mum to see my teacher..
always the same
good remarks=.="
hahahaha
just needa buck up:D
then had training before that so was warm and sweaty and disgusting..
YUCK!THINK ABT IT MAKES ME WANNA PUKE)):

sorry uh
this post super duper long=.="
haha
tata((:

just another day in my life...

2009-05-26T19:56:00.001+08:00

apparently, its a lizard..dead or alive i have no idea but i have to clear it up..
my lil bro says its hurt and if you actually look closely, you can see blood..but before clearing it up, its a present for my eldest sister(:

*sigh*
haha..came back from piano then bathed
found out who the mystery guy was=.="
JIN HO

then yesterday took a very sexy picture of my lil bro..
haha
its up there..haha

then today my mum wanted to show me a surprise..
guess what it was..
its up there too..

late late post=x

2009-05-26T19:47:00.003+08:00

MY FAVOURITE!!!;D

after that outing with yueting..
went to eat my favourite for dinner with my family at I-SCREAM!!
super nice((:
thanks mum and dad[they are the real one=.=" cos i have too many fake ones]
then rushed home for boys over flowers[though i finish already but missed the first parts]
haha..
then realised that i still had time cos it started at 9.30 pm..
haha
so blurr..

thanks yueting(:

2009-05-23T20:13:00.005+08:00

hahaha..this is the answer to the below question..heh heh=x it was a mop!!!(:
so lesbian-y..haha..cheated on xin zhi=x haha..nvm la..xin zhi cheat on me alot of times liao..

*she was trying to kiss me..
she was trying to open a cubicle..what a pervert=x

*the truth is..there was no one inside..haha
guess what this is(:
she is (apparently) trying to get out of the toilet cubicle we were both in cos the toilet bowl kept flushing=.="
she trying to act as if she had constipation.. IF her life ambition is actress, it is=REJECT!
the toilet bowl flushed at least 10 times when we were there=.="
BEST FRIENDS:D
looking in the toilet bowl(:
yueting trying to cover her nose

today went out with yueting(:
it was like the good old times we used to have with each other;D
i think she is still my best partner for going out..
i really love her;D

the above were pictures of our one and only outing in this whole freaking term..
haha..
so better treasure her while i can..

feel like giving up

2009-05-22T22:52:00.002+08:00

ARGH!!!
I FEEL LIKE COMPLETELY GIVING UP ON EVERYTHING IN MY WHOLE FREAKING LIFE!!
to my siblings im like what?
their maid?
everytime they need something i will always be there to help
and when i need help
they flare..

everytime i use this freaking com
my 2nd sis would ask me to do this and that
and i would
then everytime she use
i ask her to let me do sth
she would be like impatient and stuff
i mean she asked me just now
and i did
till she came back and asked me again to do what chords thingy for her song
i couldnt take it so i asked her not to
and she too blew up at me
DONT KNOW WHATS WRONG WITH HER
NERD BUT WEIRD

i seriously dont know whats with my life
yeah sure
you guys may think that it is the perfect life everyone wants
THINK AGAIN
COS' ALTHOUGH I HAVE EVERYTHING I WANT
IM DEPRIVED OF STH MUCH MORE VALUABLE MONEY CAN BUY
whatever it is
you guys go guess it yourself
AND TO ME
MY LIFE NOW IS LIKE A LIVING HELL
AND I DONT EVER EVER WANNA COME BACK TO THIS POINT OF MY LIFE!!!!!!

FRIENDS

2009-05-22T21:34:00.005+08:00

what are friends?
they are people whom you hang out with and share secrets and stuff with..
if you are a girl, then they are like sisters and if you are a guy, then they are like brothers
they always have your back
but one day, they will just fade away from our lives..

maybe some will stay
but the rest will leave
your life would then be lived without them
and to me
having friends are the spice of MY life..

yeah..
but in a few weeks/months time
they will be gone

FOR SURE
THEY WILL ONLY STAY FOR AWHILE
BUT SLOWLY
THEY WILL JUST FADE AWAY
MAKING YOU MISS THEM MORE AND MORE
UNTIL YOU FINALLY GET OVER THEM AND GO ON WITH YOUR LIFE WITH YOUR NEW FRIENDS
friends are exactly like leaves..and we are the trunks
they grow
they stay green
when seasons pass
slowly
they drop
one by one
and when spring comes again
new leaves[friends]will grow..

thats how my life is with friends
they come
get involved in your life
then they fade away
without even a simple goodbye

eating mango steems really rock your world(:

2009-05-19T17:44:00.003+08:00

mango steems make you cool
mango steems make you happy
mango steems make you calm

these are the few characteristics of the fruit,
MANGO STEEMS

hahahaha..they are so much better than oranges(:
they helped to clear my mind and i really love them;D

sigh..
today that aheem aheem really like to snatch friends..
haiyo..
she stand with yueting at the bus stop when me and cheryl and ruping were walking there..
then actually she dont want follow[good choice]..
but yueting grabbed her hand or she grab..cant remember
anyway, she got on the bus and she and yueting were stuck behind..
i think it was on purpose..
haiyo..
what a weirdo...........
and she keep tying bun no wonder emelin angry lor..
someone better tell her before the bomb explodes...
but actually i pity her alot la..
like so no friends like that..
haiyo
but she also dont want my sympathy..
so..
LIKE WHATEVER!=.="

should i lend mr goh my spare phone?
but scared he not used to it leh cos its considered quite old but the keypad nice to use(:

i really want my superman):

JUST ANOTHER DAY..

2009-05-18T18:18:00.002+08:00

*SIGH!*
sian...got back papers today?hahaha
got only Cs and Bs..
NO As...
sad):

Mr Goh/aikchuan relieved my class today..they were like talking abt gross things..eww?
and he believed us when we said his hair was messy or sth..
weird dude..haha..no offence [ mostly to aikchuan]
lol?

VICTORIA!BOK!SHI!MIN!
CHEER UP(:
DONT BE SO SAD):
THINK ABOUT YOUR FRIENDS;D
AND LOVE YOU LOADS!;D

sigh..
thought aheem aheem never come today then she come=.="
pris dao me but yueting and me like lovebirds like that..smile until so sweet=.="
emelin?no diff..
bored..........

but going out soon;D
hahahahaha..
i really want THE SIMS 3
AND BOYS OVER FLOWERS DISC!

heres a weird thought
if my bday i have money, i shall pick one;D
hahahahahahaha...

man..im tired..
shaun still mean to me..bleh!

i wish and wish that all my wishes will come true(:
including the 2 things on top(:

2009-05-17T20:35:00.002+08:00

i dont want my lil brother to grow up..
i wish he could stay this cute forever..
i realised that he has already grown..
physical and internal..
last time i thought that he was so annoying but now he is like so sensible..
i want him to stay this cute
i want him to always do those crazy things that he will only do...
i just wish time would stop where it is..

LIFE IS NOT A FAIRY TALE

2009-05-17T20:25:00.002+08:00

i learnt my lesson today..
MY LIFE IS NOTHING LIKE FAIRY TALES...
or
ANYTHING LIKE DRAMA SERIES HAVE...
its just the same
tuition, school, play,sleep, eat,have friends...etc
when will my life change to something exciting and fun like those in the drama series?
[oh wait..i just remembered that that wont happen]
when will my life stop being boring and instead be filled with what i always want?
sometimes,
i just wish my life would change into something much more eventful then just those examples up there...

MY SUNSHINE COMING OUT?

2009-05-17T20:21:00.003+08:00

is this the sign of hope?
why does my world feel like its falling apart?

feeling a lil better(:

2009-05-16T13:42:00.004+08:00

this is what my lil brother did to my second sister's shoe..
its so freaking cute and only he would do this type of crazy things..HAHA!;D

feel abit better
cos went to wild wild wet..haha

my brother played the U-shaped thingy..which was super steep and without safe belts..
and he is like only 6 YEARS OLD!
i tell you..his face was hilarious and i was anxious like crazy..
he could play every ride in the theme park including the single slide thingy(s)
and he kind of like slip and just toppled down the yellow slide then everyone was shock
but he seemed happy..haha..
then the purple slide, he kind of like slipped, fell, hit his head then went sideways awhile before he went back to sitting up position..
my sister and i laughed our heads off then everyone stared at us..haha

then we kept playing the big big one..
he kept rolling here and there in the big float
we had a fun time..hahas
and we made friends with at least 4 life-guards all thanks to my 6 year old brother(;
oh..
and he played the cycling thingy
he was so cute(:

i love my brother(:

benitaloh the one and only(:

I like you

HAPPY BIRTHDAY FAHDLI!(:

Gonna Live With It

LOVE

just fine.

finally.

what if?

my sunshine is gone;

the other side.

no mood):

surprise me already!

distractions.

add colours to my life

A great friend's bday(:

an AWESOME birthday(:

feeling grey

PEE-KA BOO!

INSPIRATION NEEDED BADLY?):

IM JUST FEELING GREAT!

back to reality

Just finee(:

just relaxing

BIRTHDAY GIRL(:

A Little Getaway

just us.

beauty is in everything

in a daze

fatigue

just aint myself

a very boring show?

just me, you and the silent melody

oh gosh more birthdays?

its just complicated. and its getting boring.

THANKS ZAFRI FOR THE CAKE(:

everything is so boring.yawn

more and more birthdays~

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JOLIE~!

cos of you?

yawn

Maybe?

sometimes

ITS LIKE BOOMZ!

CHERISH

im just tired

updating~

just me?(:

A FEW HOURS LATER~

OH GOSH!

BIRTHDAYS((:

WHEEEEE!

im sorry?

EMPTY PROMISES?

SIMPLY MY LIFE..

TIRED..

EXHAUSTED

HAPPY B'DAY(:

FILLED WITH TEARS

UNTITLED~

Clueless..

ah...

Trust

Hols are in..so are the books):

BLESSED 14TH BIRTHDAY(:

friendship

trust..

PROMISES ARE SUPPOSE TO BE BROKEN SINCERELY

POP!GOES MY HEART

LOVE YOU(:

GOODNESS ME:O

BACK FROM TAIWAN

TO ALL MY DEAREST FRIENDS

ah, camp is over(:

FRUSTRATION

my most favourite things(:

*sigh*would wishes ever come true?

just another day in my life...

late late post=x

thanks yueting(:

feel like giving up

sighwould wishes ever come true?